Bladder Blabber

You are always like this…making me feel like its not gonna happen…make me steel myself up for the impending boredom/loneliness/wadever negative thing and den surprising me  wif the exact opposite!  It doesn’t annoy me but it somehow makes it extra sweet…thx sweetie!

Its kinda weird sometimes when you say everyday i’m a different person, its true actually…but somehow only u’ve noticed. In a sense its rubbish la…i am still me. But everybody changing and i dun feel the same (okok some Keane song lyrics)  lol…we change everyday but dun worry its normal…we grown and learn new things, discover ways to react differently and experience different things…its a progression! get your flexi-ruler out!

Anyways…i just wanna thx you…for coming over though i’m coughing sick and stuff, letting me have u in my surrounding when i felt drowsy after the medicine, not minding that i dun give u my attention all the time…quelling my anger when u bought the overpriced earrings(77th street) , making an effort to spend all that time wif me…you cud be anywhere in the world…but you’re here wif me…i appreciate that (okok i noe…Jay-Z lyrics) haha…thx for meeting me on the 11th instead of cimup and wad else….for being you?

Sometimes i do noe i’m too chill…not giving you the kinda of energetic vibe that you enjoy…i hope you do understand, thats me…but it doesn’t mean i wun try if you ask me…Remember our motto ? : Just say // Just ask. It solves almost everything.

I can be your doormat, receiving you everyday, wiping away your gripes and burdens, taking on the chores that you detest. But just dun complain that this doormat is of a weird shape, curling at the sides, has a weird smell and is in love with you. OK? ok.

It is not today; But someday.

There are times i get this feeling. A wish to see you outside my door, giving me a warm hug after you walk in. A bright smile shining on your face , shrugging off the weariness of your journey here or the burden of the day.

And then we share an afternoon together on the sofa, half – held by each’s other’s embrace; the other held up by cushions and a blanket. With each a book to keep our whims, while my eyes flip casually from the pages of my book to rest on your eyes, the texture of the hair, the crease of your top, the hint of cleavage… or even to ponder the surrealism of actually having you in my arms…

I’ll listen in to the sounds of your breathing along with the soothing backdrop of Lush 995 FM playing…dishing out jazz tracks and chilout music. We can make small talk or sip some tea – with the ceiling fan chilling our warm bodies, shielding us from the afternoon’s heat. Without a care of its 5pm, whether or not our families would complain or despair…able to savor your lips occasionally and yet devour literature in each bite…

Yes. That would be BLISS. Truly, in the spoken word.

But yet its not today, it shall have to reside this way.

Not forgotten by my mind; one day we’ll finally find.

Happy birthday Ber!

Today i headed down to East Coast Park after work today to go celebrate Bernice’s bday. Located at pit 38 , the atmosphere as i arrived was realli nice… laid back and every1 was chilling. Bernice was kind enough to get me some food and after i chomped down on the beehoon(hey i last eat @ 3pm ok!) Ber’s classmates decided to play “bang”

A card game from The Minds Cafe…kinda fun with a very low learning curve, i picked it up in like 5mins la~ lol…we played 2 rounds and well…it was realli fun! After that we decided to cut the birthday cake 🙂

Bernice’s classmates in wait for the cake and chatting.

Bernice and Jovi posing happily for the group of photographers.

After the cake was cut and eaten…they decided to play something weird. putting their palms in a basin of ice…they endured the cold to prevent having to drink a concoction of disgusting stuff like ice cream,beer,lemon barley, a marshmallow, sambal and belachan (no thx to Jovi).

The 4 were so gd and in the end after we had piled on ice for over 4 times we had to end the faceoff by forcing each other out of the ice basin with their already numb palms…End up Zhiwen was forced out and he had to drink it up….not all la of coz! but he was realli sporting 🙂

Happy bday Ber 🙂 Hope you got ur wishes come true…

The daily dose : take once weekly.

I tink my blog is turning from Today to 8Days. If you noe wad i mean 😀 Today’s been a wild ride…my handfone’s timing was a lil screwed since Huiqi and i swapped fone for a short while. The time was a few mins off…and hey! don’t think its a small matter! For me a few mins is exactly the fine line i draw to result in me being exactly on time…or having to use my 15mins grace period before i end up being late for work.

So today…my heart raced as i wondered at the taxi stand @ Wisma…wondering if i actually have time for my morning puff before i start work…or am i already running late. But it was all resolved as i switched my time to the NETS timing lol! Jick was all flustered for the morning…trying to get his hands on Heeren’s privilege card so he can get a discount @ Limited Ed. We called Joanne but she was late and uncontactable thereafter (wad happen to CHECK’s shop fone sia!)

The day was kinda constant after Claudia arrived…sales abit of chatting…den i had to get down to my dirty job…THE STOCKTAKE LIST. A little over a hundred pages of size 8 font sized product listing…for me to tally with my counted balance. So throughout the whole day…my main thing i did was stand at the counter, counting the numbers, cashing and occasionally stepping out to serve some customers…if u looked at the video in fast forward…i tink u will see me ‘vibrating’ at the counter for 40% of the time. Lol!

Towards the evening…a couple of my “old” (ok i only work here for like 3 mths plus) customers came by…a nice young couple…15yrs old. So they tried on some stuff, happily yakking away in the fitting room section, oblivious to the fact tat there was some echo effect and tat every word was kinda like broadcast to the entire shop. They were realli happy like kids, giggling and laughing and kinda like playing…until i realised : The couple were kinda like Me and Huiqi…albeit minus the loud guffaws and slapstick offered by most 15yr olds…In an unexpected turn of events…the couple asked for my name and we end up exchanging our MSN contacts. Only after they had left…i remembered my horoscope for the day :”you will extend your social network of contacts today”

Gosh! How true…

To my avid readers…

Sorry for the very occasional posts nowadays…Many a thing has been on my mind , juggling time to prgress my relationship with Huiqi…taking the store documents back to further analyse and decipher the proper procedures and even giving myself case studies to see if i can solve them…

Meanwhile, other stuff like Ber’s Bday, and other misc stuff pepper my daily life.

Joanne came by yesterday…wearing a very nice dress freshly bought from Zara.It realli suit her well and her entire dressing was lovely for a night out to MOS(which she was realli going to that night). She looks alot better…i guess not so much stress in CHECK liao ba… 😀

Claudia’s back in action today…though i didnt get to see it…but no 1 called for the entire day* ‘cept for Claudia’s uniform issue*…so i guess with Claudia around everything went pretty smoothly. 🙂 Its kinda sad to get bombarded by calls from the shop when you’re off duty…but i guess its part and parcel of the manager’s jo…just like the way Jickson put it. Thx for that talk Jickson…Really trying my best to do gd and adjust my ways to better handle the shop and help you guys too…

Anna failed to catch me at the shop for 2 days straight le…looks like her luck is running low…or maybe its mine? Coz she brought new ‘chai’ to show me…lol! But its ok…my heart’s taken already 😀

I went out with Huiqi and Jiamin the whole day…Met up in the afternoon for porridge and den took a bus down to Esplanade’s Library Cafe( Singapore Art Cafe) for a quick study session(Huiqi’s…not me). We ended at around 7 and met Peishen @ Bugis for dinner. We ate at the horrible Food Junction at Lvl2. The design of the entire foodcourt is crappy la…Walkways so narrow they barely fit 1 normal sized person. Add that with the presence of Cleaners and ppl trying to find/wait for seats…its a utter annoyance! If the designer was in my company…i’d fire him in a blink of an eye….wad the hell was he taking when he drew those floorplans? Ketamine? Sheesh! The food however was decent and if u realli wanna just gif it a try…do so! But for me…its the 1st and last time i’d ever eat there thx you very much!

Jiamin and Peishen left after dinner so me and Huiqi hung around in Kino and read some books….we end up at the language section and started to read conversational Japanese self help books…Many laughs and try-outs later…we headed for TCC and had a small meal of Baked Pasta and cake. The cake i forgot its name but its the 1 u can buy at Beard Papa..the 1 wif choc inside…it was warmed up and as we cut it open the choc flowed out like lava and we quickly gobbled it up. YUMMY!

The food and atmosphere helped with the creative juice and so we got down to making poems again! LOL! Took a few photos but its in Huiqi’s Digicam. So maybe i’d update nxt time! 🙂

3 months

Well today is my 3rd month at Flesh Imp…coincidentally i’m on off…Its been a wild ride of stocktakes, manager meeting and staff relations all this wild…couple tat wif the fun daily happenings…claudia and frens, learning the ‘FLMP language’ ,Reagan’s stint and Jickson’s playershit…Its been a realli nice time here.

Somehow things has begun to sink in…and the enthu is wearing thin…routine days are appearing and somehow its a gd thing too…Routine is something tat keeps me going actually…a stable relationship tat juz goes on and on like a workhorse. But i’m starting to wonder this few days…where’s the fun? I mean i had my fun while in RSH – being in control of the stock and having a great time serving my customers, even at CHECK – i had my fun…the daily coffee and casual banter over streetstyle and wads cool. At FLMP….well i have to say Claudia’s a big part of wads keeping me going…and the support from the guys is realli keeping my head up. But i’m missing tat FUN.

Like come on? I dunno how to properly describe it but is this manager thing realli not my thing? I can work but its no fun? Am i losing my touch? Or am i just affected by the little details tat get me down? I just remember wad Xiao Qing once said; “Being the manager isn’t always the best job” tat sentiment has been ringing in my mind for the longest time…

What should i do? Quit and focus on my own company? Stay on and settle those little disputes and secure this job? Or find something else tat will realli rock my boat?

Despite all these nagging at my head…i still have Huiqi and all my little things tat i do to keep me happy and going strong…How thankful i am to have Her to hang on to…to hug and at least relieve my troubles for the day or at least outta my mind for those few hours. Maybe time will show my final decision, meanwhile lets just fight it out….do my job…and see wad goes.

Enjoy your time alone, it seems long but it is short.

Cherish the times together, everlasting but 1 day we might part.

Silly things may take us down;

But i dare say i never look at each day with a frown.