Ring Ring…

Its so dramatic, how 1 call can change everything in a day. I just came back from a happy day, sharing the day’s going-ons with Pooi Yue while we took the train back home. We even had some light dessert and shopped for groceries together before coming home to cook noodles.

Then, Belle called me. Half drunk and with no 1 else to depend on, she called her last resort – me. After repeated attempts to hold some sort of conversation and keep her awake on the line, she cut the line saying she’ll call back. But the damage had been done. Pooi Yue saw me on the line with her.

Now I’m not trying to blame anybody but I’m just bemoaning the fact that my girlfren doesn’t have the understanding and trust that I require. The call came at a bad time too….I tink we both know its better that we stay away. Not that we can’t be frens, but its too difficult to be frens. I sometimes think Pooi Yue ranted abt the correct thing – Why must she call me? . Its a question that I can’t explain but I noe the answer.

The next morning and today, she’s been giving me the cold shoulder despite my attempts to reconcile. Frustrating to be in such a situation , especially since I did nothing to provoke it. My logical side tells me to give my love some time and it will work out in the longer run. It preaches patience and understanding. But my other side tells me that if this goes on any longer, I’ll gladly just fuck it and destroy everything.

Its such a crazy struggle….and to tink it all began with a call.

Damn.