At the end of it all….is not a pot of gold.
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Its a lie to say I dun miss her, its foolish to say I’ve gone and moved on.
Every single day I miss her, and see her in places along my home.
Outlines of her standing there, traced by the wisp of my ciggeratte smoke.
Hang on to my words, as my Love’s foundation is shook.
“When your world finally happens to crash and burn ; sift thru the ashes to rebuild your mud hut.” -Thereisnoenemy.
Good thing or not, all things will come to an end. But still, whatever remains must go on. This is the way the world has been, is, and always will be.
I trust we all keep our resentments, pride and hurt deep inside; but that is yours and your own to deal with. Rebuild your life as you deem fit and it will once again become your world.
But remember, your world is what you build of it.
I attended Comex today…half to find Ber, the other half to look for a external harddisk. I met up with Cheryl and we went up…and waited for David to reach. Once everyone was there, we went up to the 3rd level for the harddisks.
We dropped by to say hi to Ber 1st…but she was pretty busy so we head off to see the HDDs. Pretty nice stuff but a real lack of crowd. The last IT fair , we had barely enough space to walk. LOL! We noted the HDDs…and den David went off. Cheryl and I decided to have some food and I finally scored the Porridge Buffet. It wasn’t very exciting actually, maybe becoz it was the last hour…but I was looking to a bigger variety.
Cheryl and I chatted non stop and our chatter brought us wondering to Marina Square. We shopped at Zara and Giordano but found nothing suitbale, until Cheryl went to meet her friend. I, however, head back to Comex and found Ber for a smoke.
The next thing that happened was amazing. I had made up my mind to go up and get the Maxtor’s $99 160gb HDD (oneTouch Mini) when I bumped into Yvonne! It was such a great surprise and thank god she’s a techie too. So I asked her opinion about the HDD and we actually settled for a 250gb 1 coz the diff wasn’t too much. We also shopped around for Ber’s CompactFlash card ($19 for 4gb OMGWTFBBQ!!!) amd Yvonne got Ron’s thumbdrive ( 4gb for 2pc $35.90 WTFWTFWTF~!) We happily shared the cost of that…one each haha!
We walked around the booths, really enjoying each other’s company (for the very 1st time, I enjoyed her company – usually we dun really talk much proper stuff) She even let me indulge at the Razer booth playing Call Of Duty 4 for what seemed like the longest time! and she never said a single complaint. I like her more n more hahaha….
We spilt after that coz I had a movie date wif Lester and Rustin and she had Ron’s gig at SMU.
The movie was pretty gd…Star War’s Clone Wars. It is a old title but reworked in anime ver. Its very entertaining, esp with the droid’s funny AI chatter. It really saved the movie (well…in my opinion) lol! The rest of it was pretty much close to the old story.
Rustin,Lester and I sat down for light dinner and drinks after that…discussing design ideas, about video ads, print ad concepts and talking about ads for Para-Olympics. Fooling around with the D40 that Lester brought and Rustin’s videocam…I really had alot of fun and insight with this 2…never fails to awaken the creative cells.
Visited Ron at Suntec’s Harry’s Bar after work today…to support him while he played his gig.
Cheryl and Carmen met up with me too 
I haven’t seen the 2 ladies after so long…and it sure feels gd to chat with them again. We had a couple of drinks but got into some standoff with the bar crew. Bloody manager told us the 1 for 1 was still on…but when we asked for the free drink they come n tell us 1 for 1 was over when we ordered. Fucking hell HONOR UR MISTAKES BITCH!
Usually I’m a frenly chap when I drink…but this is my 1st time here and u try to rip me off? WTF? She end up giving us only 1 free drink and we compromised…but the next time we drink there…I noe wad to do le. Order and bill immediately.
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I miss her…more and more everyday. But she needs some time to herself. Please love, talk to me if you need me…else be happy on ur own. I hope u get wad you want. Den again I hope I’m the one you want. 
Rage.
I was covered, head to toe, buttered inside out with it. Inexplicible, surmounting, in-your-throat rage. I dunno why it came and why I felt it during the second half of the day.
Thank god its over now.
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I think I’m in trouble. I’m carrying too many people’s troubles, secrets and opinions. I’ve been taking on their burdens and little notes without care for myself and now I feel the weight.
Yes , they are my frens…but I have problems too. They may be chronic but I need to deal with them…
Times like this I wish I had you to calm me down….you always do…without a word but a touch will do.
Canele. Our dear Ah Fong is working there now, having recently been transfered. Ben ,Phee and I had made our way there to surprise him and also to try out the food.
We had a meal of spaghetti but to be honest, it wasn’t outstanding. What was outstanding was the cakes and ice cream! Ah Fong gave us this as a treat and well…Canele is a french patisserie; so it does live up to its name!
This is known as “The Signature”. Its the better of the two. Chocolate with a solid texture (not those fluffy kind tat doesn’t have weightage in your mouth) and there’s a thin wafer crisp layer in the middle of it. Heavenly is one of the words used to describe it, but we were too busy indulging on the 1st bite of it to give a proper reaction to it.
Ben had this – Le’ Amour. The pink sticks are sweet, made of egg white and sugar and tasted great. But I tink this is more for the ladies. Sorry Ben.
Its not chocolate; its Earl Grey. I had this one and I haven’t had Earl Grey for the longest time! The tea flavour was well infused in the ice cream. I thought it was gonna be some lightly flavored affair but I was very wrong. They added some chopped nuts in the ice cream for some bite. The raspberries at the side are amazing – balances the bitterness of tea against its naturally sweet nature. I tink I spent quite a while chopping away at the chocolate slices on top too!
All in all…it costs us around $25 each for a spag and ice cream. It may seem much…but I will come back for the cake and ice cream someday ; with a lucky person in tow 
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The day wasn’t just that meal alone…we also caught 4Bia – 4 ghost stories coupled into 1 show. It was pretty gd! 1st one was creepy – about handphones. The second was about revenge but they screwed it up with alot of CG. The 3rd one was the funniest about a bunch of frens on a white-water rafting trip. But the 4th..god damn the 4th takes the cake. It about a airline crew whose affair with some royalty’s husband gets discovered. The princess boards the plane for revenge and well…you watch it yourself.
The cues are cliche, as per normal horror movies…the loudness of the background music growing as the ghost is about to appear.The lurking behind you and popping out beside the lead…very classic stuff. But it does the job as usual.
I tink I lost my balls somewhere in the theater…anyone wanna go back Cine with me to find them? =X
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Nobody said it was easy;
Oh its a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy;
No one ever said it would be this hard.
I heard this @ Suntec, performed by a very good singer.
It made me think of you,Belle. How that you are out of reach for me, and the enduring question…”Was I ever loved by you?”
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Today was a good day, met up with Justine and Aloysius. We walked around Suntec, found a really nice waffle place with a cute waitress *Ber I bring u there next time lol* and we caught a movie and met Ron at Cine.
Its amazing we travelled so much today, had so many laughs and jokes and stories along the way. So far its been 1 of the best off days. I haven’t had so much to say and enjoyed myself so much thru it all. Much less, dun forget that its still my “Silent” period. I tink I have totally reversed it…=X
We have all sat here at some point of time in our lives,
seemingly sure of where we are heading.
But are we really sure?
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” In every Man’s remembrances there are things He will not reveal to everybody, but only his friends. There are other things he will not reveal, but only to himself, and then only under a pledge of secrecy. Finally, there some things that a man is afraid to reveal even to himself, and any honest man accumlates a pretty fair number of such things. The more respectable the man, the more of them he has.”
Quoted from “Notes from Underground” by Fyodor Dostoevsky
Its a great book; get it from the library.
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Yet another quiet day spent in peace. I was about to try something I saw in Chaos Theory and write down 3 places I wanna go (Changi Village/SimLim/Airport) on paper and randomly pick one, but after chancing upon some new book…I decided to go to The Central Library and read the book instead.
It wasn’t too bad…considering that the book was good and by reading the book I escaped 3 major downpours in Sengkang,Bugis and Sengakng again. Its just my lucky day
Today was pretty amazing. Belle contacted me in the morning, and we really had a decent talk after these few weeks. I have already settled down and no longer feel the yearning pains…and it was great being able to talk and laugh with her on the fone again…but I know I’m moments away from falling in love with her again.
Keep your hold, Alvin.
I set out to collect my belt from a seller in The Cathay and also to meet Ron for a movie – Meet Dave.Right before Ron came…I bumped into Daniel! He was going to church and had come out for lunch.
The movie was amazingly funny, the discovery of local Earth culture and the funny acting by Eddie Murphy is quite nice. I also like the details on their uniforms and the acting by the other actors. The “brain – Number 2″ was very funny and acting logical, while number 3 – the memory , was quite emotional.
Overall it was a touching show with a decent story.
I was chilling with Ron at Spin the Bottle with his fren, watching vids on Youtube and checking out hot girls walking around when I received a S.O.S sms. Justine needed help with her Emotional Nemesis and we sat @ Dhoby Exchange eating JustAsia with her fren. Both of us shot at her for being so naive and gave our advice as to how to deal with the Nemesis. In the end she was enlightened and we went to Watsons to buy her dental floss.
We were at the bus stop sending her fren off, when I bumped into Lester and his cute fren, Yun Fei.The girl was very familiar – I must have met her before either seen her before with Lester, or she was a fren of Bernice’s. But since I couldn’t recall…I could only watch her go off with a “hi”
What a long and fruitful day!
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After I helped to settle the schedule for Sabrina’s ROM, Cinese customs ceremony and chalet details, my mind drifted. Back to a old topic that roamed for a long time in my mind. I wondered about Burmese wedding customs and images of her performing a chinese tea ceremony to my parents appeared in my mind. It was only replaced by the memory of her saying that she doesn’t like “too Chinese kind” of guys.
It always made me feel so contradicted, when I am willing to forgo these Customs for her…but deep down I’m just doing it for my parents and grandparents.
I realised this and quickly pushed these memories all back into the deep realm of my mind. I mustn’t forget – I’m always memories away…
I got shot down again today…having to handle another Alteration Mistake , this time sent to us from Liat Tower’s Zara. The callbacks to Angus(Lt Mens Manager) and the customer to ensure a smiley face on him, resulted in a not-so-smiley face on me. Finally we found the problem…the pants was tagged wrongly from the factory and was a size 36 instead of a 34 incher as it was tagged. Problem solved.
The midday was decent, the sales were racking up, everything was dandy. Sadly, we didn’t get Janice to be our cashier…so we missed out on alot of laughs. The next event will rock my entire day.
Keith’s alteration customer was handed a pair of pants, no actually its 2 pairs, that were awkwardly short. I checked the measurements as it followed the instructions. No Ken to save me, David on leave, calling a Womens Manager would be like a duck talking to a horse. I had no choice but to step in and do a re-alteration. Luckily the tailor had enough allowance to give him the alteration.
The problem of who will pay the alteration came up. If Ken was around , it would be Free. But I can’t make that decision to declare it free…so the next 2 hours of worry came. Either Keith will pay, I will help to pay, or the bloody Company can pay for it.
I want no part of this anymore.
Thankfully, any final alterations will be collected by the 21st. And I’m off for the next 2 days. God bless me…no more of this shit please!
