Yearnings of the last night of 2007

” Another year is over, time to spend another one with you…”

This annoying song tat i heard in Breko Cafe keeps playing over in my head and i can’t find the song! Its sung with a jazzy tune…slow jazz mind you and a female singer. I wan the song! Any song pros out there?

Hell i even tried calling Breko Cafe to ask the staff wad song it was…but they didn’t noe the song coz it was on mp3 and the songs were supplied by the boss. Damn!

Well it all started when i was off to meet Huiqi @ Marina Square but den she asked me not to come coz Evelyn’s fren might be coming over so it’d be awkward for me to be there. So i gave Mo a call and turns out that he’s at Bugis with Ah Peng. So i head down to meet them and grab a bite…turns out we have no cash and so we have to find a place that allows us to swipe! End up we went to meet another of Mo’s fren and we had a meal at Breko Cafe. The ambience was damn nice and we had some Stella and drank to the New Year and us hitting shop target.

And then i heard this wonderful jazzy song in the shop and its now stuck firmly in my head. I went back home feeling real glad i spent this New Year Eve in a fruitful manner compared to last yr (bloody chicken pox is no celebration ok) and considering i didn’t manage to spend it with Huiqi…well…It was like a close 2nd

The final surpise came when i got back home….Belle called! and we spent over an hr on the fone…chatting away making each other laugh and realli being very happy! We both tried to look for the song on google, based on those key lyrics…but to no avail. We did find a Sax musician named David Sanborn and the music’s great too but its still the wrong song.

Do i realli have to go back to Breko’s sit down n chill till they play that song? and like frigging download it or ask them to let me transfer the song? Like i really would ok! Belle noes for sure…haha.

Thx you Belle, it turns out that the most impt person for 2007….turns out to be you. Someone I always allowed to depend on me…turned my last night of 2007 into a night worth remembering. Thank you Belle *muah* Chit Da Pe

Rest is essential for workhorses.

I have been coughing badly for the past week and just as i tot it had died down…its sprung back in full force and now I’m on MC. Shit thats $50 gone from my pay! But it was pretty gd coz i haven’t slept like I did today for a long looong looooooooooooong time man!

I spend the whole day watching DVD, reading my Milk and East touch mags(still haven’t finish cause doze off halfway due to medi) and getting lotsa sleep inbetween. The dreams were strange and terrifying – i had one abt work and realising the shop became some kind of park. and another 1 abt Huiqi and me bickering our something vague. Not realli the sweetest dreams but i always have weird dreams when i sleep on my sofa. Gonna sleep there again tonight!

I msged Kelsey and Huiqi at night to meet for dinner, so I met Kelsey and we sent Ling home, den we set off walking to Hougang to meet her as she came back from work. She was visibly tired and I could tell there’s alot on her mind, but everytime i ask she’d tell me :”its ok”. Stupid me , i always go along with her lies…I have no right to her own private matters anyway…no matter how close we are. I only wish she’d confide in me…somehow i just wanna help her in any way i can – but i guess just being her for her is some form of help ba…

“Problems are like big bitter tablets ; break them down so its easier to swallow. “

A wasted day : Reclaimed!

I woke up at 1pm today. How shocked i was when i discovered this!

Having ‘wasted’ the 1st few precious hours of my off day, i scrambled to msg Huiqi , settle some company documents and go thru Monolith’s recent orders. A call to Sindy and Huiqi later and out i went – to deliver Michlle’s order to her house and after that to meet Huiqi and Kelsey at Heartland Mall.

It was damn frustrating to find the 2 girls cause they were at the Japanese school and it realli irks me to hear Huiqi’s worn out voice so i called Kelsey. Who noes? Huiqi go and pick up and kept on trying to direct me with her hoarse throat. Ok la i managed to find them in the end…after i climbed the equivalent of 16 storeys (up and down 4 storeys of 4 different flight of stairs.) i got so frustrated that i couldn’t hold my frustration back and lashed out at the darling ger. Sorry love!

I was harsh but i had to do it…

We spent the rest of the day playing pool and chilling in Kovan, and den head back to Hougang only to eat and make the police report for Huiqi’s lost IC. The police guys were quite friendly but Kelsey was looking abit wary. We chilled at the playground nearby Huiqi’s house only to be chased off by a uncle who lived right beside the playground, apparently we were talking directly outside his 2nd floor window level and his window was wide open.

Well it was nice to be sitting so high up on the jungle gym lol!

Lost, in more ways then one.

My love is reduced to a whisper;

Words and sounds turned into a whimper;

Loss of voice and wallet deprived;

I quietly wonder if she cried.

Angry and frustrated at the situation so;

My raw emotions i try to hold;

Showing anger never helps;

But few things burn more then a tongue held.

Once again from the top.

We met Yuta and Yano after work again today and this time we went to eat Tau Huey @ Bugis area…poor Ber called earlier during my work but i was hounded by 3 separate customers so i hastily told her i couldn’t meet.

I met another new fren of Huiqi’s – Evelyn. A half-japanese girl *dunno her age but ok la quite young* who was realli quite but quite interesting to watch. The most awkward thing happened actually when all of us were walking towards the eating place…the 3 girls decided to disturb us guys by tapping us on our shoulder and sticking a finger at the side of our faces, expecting a natural reaction which is to turn and look – thus getting our faces poked by them.

But i already knew this game so i calmly grabbed her finger and held on to it. Until i looked to my right and saw Huiqi. I suddenly realised the finger did not belong to Huiqi, but Evelyn! So awkward!I quickly let go…and looked at her but she was simply smiling away. WTH?She was pretty quiet herself and my various attempt to strike conversation with her ended in a simple convo that was full of coyness.

After we ate we wanted to take a photo but just nice Huiqi’s mum called and the call resulted in the back alley’s light (yes we were sitting in the back alley) shutting off – thus spoiling the photo chance. But i moved every1 to the main road and used a barricade to support the cam and used timer to get a photo of us all

We exchanged email address and phone numbers so we could keep in touch…and split shortly after. Nice knowing those 2 guys for the past 2 days…..they were a great source of  fun LOL!

2 girls ,2 Jap guys and an alien with 3 personalities.

I was supposed to meet up with the guys for a drinking session today…but Huiqi came by with 2 new japanese frens, a couple of tourists they met @ Clarke Quay. Uta-san & Yano-san were frenly and kinda glad that i could speak and understand japanese, oso they were eager to teach and assist Huiqi in her japanese practice. *of course they are! Why wouldn’t they be?*

I brought them all with me to Ice Cold Beer @ Cuppage but the stupidest thing happened…I GOT BOUNCED OUT. Like for the 1st time i ever got bounced out of there for being 23 when the age limit is officially 25 and mind you I’ve gone there for so many times! I told the guys and Ronald was realli pissed by the whole situation saying that we never had a prob there….So the whole bunch went down to Alleybar who accommodated us without a peep. Nice service and kudos to that! But the drinks there were ex, so the guys went back to ICB without me…i spoke to Yano san and along the way found out he was a Pisces on the edge of Aquarius…and abit more abt his personal life in Japan.

Yano san was quieter like a usual Aquarius – observing the crowd and usually just helping out to link us with the proper meaning of wad each party was trying to express…but when he spoke to Uta-san his inner Pisces came out and i could see that he was usually more expressive den we could see.
Uta-san was a total Leo and was enjoying disturbing Kelsey and fooling around with the girls…and i could see his pride side appear everytime he got stumped by Kelsey’s rebuttals in Chinese. He didn’t understand and all he would say was try to deny in Japanese.

So funny la! but it was damn fun …and i got to practice my rusty japanese. Lol! And to top it off i got to spend some proper time wif Huiqi

On the way home, Kelsey imparted a few words that woke me up totally…i knew wad she meant even before she said it – but i guess i just needed someone to say those words in my mind. Thanks Kelsey!

A nice twist

Planned to wait for Huiqi to end work den go out but turns out she has to go for a fren’s bday party. So i hung out at her workplace and helped out a lil

After work i accompanied her to help choose a cake for her fren and right as i bought the cake…Cheryl called.

I end up meeting her and a new fren,Francis( from Philippines) and realised he oso an Aquarius. So we chatted a lil, jibed at Cheryl, and realized tat alot of guys around Cheryl are Aquarians and that includes her bf!

We caught up with Mo and the 3 of us headed down to the beancurd shop @ Bugis area and ate a lil before heading home…

Well it was better den i planned – (go straight home after sending Huiqi off)

So I’m happy!

Keep your complaints to yourself.

What a weird turn of events!

I complained to Claudia today…lamenting that I’ve not seen Huiqi in person for almost 3 days…and this evening i finally managed to confirm a  meeting with her after work!

Just as I met her and strolled towards the kopitiam, her bro called as we walked across the junction to call her to get ready coz they were heading out for supper.

Such irony!

Iwanai – Iranai – Shiranai

For those who dunno Jap…it mean “dun say – dun wan – dun know”

This is part of a Japanese rhyme that i formed for Huiqi when she was still picking up the Japanese language. Little would i noe it would hold much meaning for us.

Iwanai : the little things we dun say or miscommunicate affect our relationship. Things left unclear, emotions not deciphered. They confuse us and annoy us but yet we can’t seem to find the time to solve them (blame tactless ol’ Alvin and busy ol’ Huiqi)

Iranai – The refusal of the lady to form a proper r/s wif me due to her much-fought for “freedom” Yes i understand that she took a long time to get over her ex and her current status is a real relief from the shackles of a serious commitment. I only hope she understand that 1 party can’t keep up the tent alone. I don’t like a relationship of restrictions – becoz i myself need to be free.

Shiranai – The constant denial i get from her, and yes i say this when i get confused too. Its a common easy exit for us when we refuse to see things in another light, or fear wads the consequences of the nxt decision we are about to make.

No need to be scared; i still love you. But for how long can i keep this up? Even the 3 of us do not know. You’ll never lose what you never truly owned.

Dakara aishiteru ga itte.

I have a dream.

I woke up from my bad dreams…dreams manifested probably from my worries and frustrations.

I was on a bus heading home from somewhere far, and the bus turned by Huiqi’s house area so I gave her a call. there was this yearning feeling of wanting to see her, but she declined my offer when she heard i was on the bus. Somehow I felt someone else was beside her as I spoke to her over the line. Unhappily I got off the bus without looking where I was going and ended up in some red light district area….I walked into this sleazy hotel with open rooms and somehow I didn’t have my specs on so i couldn’t see clearly. I walked thru the entrance and reception and ask for the rates and they asked me to just go in 1st. but i walked 1 round of the hotel den i walked out alone…feeling that this wasn’t my thing.

When i got out of the hotel, I was talking to this call-girl and we walked on heading nowhere and suddenly we were stopped by 2 CID officers…I was still very upset and feeling like I was about to cry but I spoke to the 2 officers and did wad I had to…somehow during tat time I felt the whole place looked like Hougang…like somewhere near the carparks of the cluster market area.Then i woke up.

I later on had dreamt of me and Huiqi and a certain canal near her house…in my previous dreams – we would throw our spare change into the canal wif regard that one day we can climb down into it and we can retrieve all the money. but last nite…we did that. we climbed down and we found the money, 3 separate bunches of coins – 1 bunch for each time i had this recurring dream. Then I realised the money had moved from the spot we threw. so i told Huiqi that the drain water was moving the money and the drain lead to a huge drainage sewer that had no end. So we took the money out.

I have no idea what those dreams meant but as i woke up and lay there on my bed…I tried to figure them out and decided to blog abt it.